Thursday, May 28, 2009

A sweet Chunk

My little Chunks-a-lot has recently discovered something wonderful.......cake. As much macaroni and cheese, noodles with butter and bread-products that she eats, you wouldn't really think she has the need for too many more calories in her diet. But nonetheless, she wakes up in the morning, sometimes asking for grits and other times asking for a piece of cake. Not that I would ever give it to her at 6 in the morning, I am not that crazy of a mother, I at least make her wait until 8:30 or 9am. I am kidding, of course. But anytime we set foot in Walmart, I have to steer clear of the bakery section unless I am prepared to be jumped by a crazy toddler wanting her sweets. The other day, Chocolat (Nannie) was with us at the store and Chunks got her eye on a container of mini blueberry muffins and got so excited about them that she almost jumped out of her grandmother's arms! The strange part about all of this is that she wouldn't even eat sweets until about a month ago. I'm not sure what has happened to suddenly make her crave the yummy goodness of anything and everything with sugar, but I must admit that I think it is cute. And with each dimple that is added to her sweet thighs and every chunk that starts to creep up in her cheeks, I sometimes start to think that I just might have created an issue here. But then I look at this face.....
completely stuffed with cake, and this face....overwhelmed by the indulgences of another cupcake and I think--- cancer, chemotherapy, months of pain and sickness, brain surgeries, MRI's, constant medications.........obsessed with cake? Well, we can fight that one another day.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

The little moments in between

As a mom, I sometimes feel like I live within a split personality. I seem to go from being in total awe of the two precious children that I have to literally wanting to pull my hair out when they fight and argue. Who ever thought that two children, separated by four whole years and divided by gender, could actually argue as much as my little ones do?!

Talks-a-lot is polishing off the art of irritating his little sister while Chunks-a-lot is coming into her own as a sassy, opinionated and drama-filled little girl. The combination can create fireworks. Just this morning, Talks-a-lot told his chunky counter-part that she needed to eat her breakfast. This command was followed by a sassy, "No!". The conversation that followed went something like this: "Yes!", "No!", "Yes!", "No!", "Yes!", "No!". I was so in "awe" at their ability to keep this up for so long that I almost went into a trance. That quickly ended when Chunks-a-lot let out one of her famous whiny screams. I corrected them both, told them to stop arguing and reminded Talks-a-lot that it is Mommy's job to tell Chunks what to do. And, yes, I do realize that stopping the argument the very instant it begins is the best way to head off such a dramatic ending, but I'm not always "on my toes" first thing in the morning.

Yesterday as we were cruising through Walmart, both of my children decided that they needed to ride in the buggy. I have no problem with this, as it really makes my shopping much easier, but then the fighting began. And the ridiculous part about it is that they were arguing about who got to hold which grocery item in their lap! I kept correcting and disciplining, only to have another argument spark about a tub of butter, at which point I began to break a sweat. I closed my eyes for a moment, yearning for some quiet, begging God for some patience and when I opened my eyes, a smile spread across my face. For there giggling together were two little people, two of the most important people in my life. Talks-a-lot had pulled his little sister into his lap and was whispering quietly in her ear. She was tickled and delighted by this and started trying to whisper into his cheek instead of his ear, it seemed as though she didn't quite understand the concept of telling a secret. But it served its purpose as Talks-a-lot broke out into laughter and tightly hugged his chubby, little sister. He sweetly kissed her on the face and she beamed with joy. A stranger passed us by and commented on how sweet it was to see two siblings who love each other so much. (He also went on to say that they actually looked like toys and not children, but I thought that kind of ruined the moment so we'll leave that part out.)
And I realized how much those little moments make it all worthwhile. Just to see my son, who is quickly becoming a young man, showering his little sister with love and affection brings a joy to me that I cannot put into words. And to see my little Chunks-a-lot constantly toddling after her big brother, aspiring to be everything that he is, lighting up with pure joy at just the sight of him; it touches my heart so deeply that it brings me to tears. The fact is, they don't come here with a dose of maturity, they're going to fight and argue about anything and everything....sometimes even all day long. But in those little moments where I get to see the bond they share and the love they so deeply feel for one another, I realize how blessed I truly am. Maybe it is a little bit like having a split personality, somehow I think it's all just a part of being a mom. And at the end of the day, it's a moment like this that makes my job as mediator, correctional officer and disciplinarian completely worthwhile..

Thursday, May 7, 2009

The Big Six

Tonight is the last night that my precious little Talks-a-lot will be five years old. Tomorrow is his sixth birthday and I am in disbelief at how quickly he is growing up. He is such an incredible young man and here is why:

1. His heart is bursting at the seams with compassion for others
2. He adores his little sister, even when she picks on him
3. He is thoughtful in ways that are far beyond his years
4. He treats his mommy like she is a princess
5. Life is a constant adventure for him, regardless of his circumstances
6. He wants to be a neuro-oncologist when he grows up so he can find a cure for Chunks-a-lot's cancer (I am serious, these were his exact words)
7. He always sees the good in everyone
8. He has an amazing ability to whole-heartedly forgive people
9. He is always open to learning new things, even if that means admitting that he doesn't know everything
10. He is the most tender-hearted child I have ever been around
11. He shows his love for his family at every moment possible
12. He is one of the funniest people I know
13. He is good at almost everything he does
14. He is always willing to help others, even if that means giving up something that he wants

And, really, the list goes on and on. I am so blessed to have such a wonderful little man in my life and I know that God is going to use Him in incredible ways....well, He already has. So here's to you, Talks-a-lot, on the eve of your sixth birthday. I cannot imagine my life without you and I love you so much! Happy Birthday!!!